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05 April 2009 @ 01:51 pm
Another quiz. Woo.
I took it three times and got Itachi twice with Sasuke once.
Both result texts seemed to be really dead on with my personality.
This quiz is only for males, but there's another one for females if you should feel the want to take it. The exact URL is too long for me to copy and paste (lazy, I know), but google Naruto character personality quiz and look for the one that says "+30 Results" and then look for the male and female version. Depending on what sex you are.

You Scored as Uchiha Itachi

You are Itachi Uchiha. You love your little brother Sasuke more than life itself. You dedicated your whole life preventing war and making sure Sasuke could become as strong as possible. You’ve told many lies, and became someone other than yourself just for Sasuke. Peace is the most important thing to you, other than your love for your brother.

You Scored as Uchiha Sasuke

You are Sasuke Uchiha, the avenger. You are very ambitious and let nobody stand in your way. You hold grudges, desire to harm your enemies, and let your emotions control you to the point where you lose control sometimes. You do make friends, but isolate yourself often, keeping very few people by your side. No matter where you are though, there always seems to be a girl obsessed with you though.
05 April 2009 @ 01:26 pm
I've been going over myself for the past few days. Nothing too complicated, just reminiscing over how I used to be while trying to remember exactly what happened for me to experience the change that happened to me. It's hard to pinpoint exactly when it happened though. No matter how hard I remember, or how much I happen to remember, it blurs during the exact time that this transformation manifested itself. I remember how I used to be and why and how am I now, but there's no exact why for the change. Not to me anyway. Maybe later on it'll hit me, but right now it's not.

Perhaps I need to meditate more and let it come to me in its own time instead of forcing it own for my own accord. I'll get it either way so I'll still achieve my goal. There's not really a point in rushing it if I'm going to remember it eventually.

I need to start writing in here more often again. However, I rarely have anything to write once I want to.
27 March 2009 @ 04:41 pm
I am a vengeful, hateful person. I know this. I hold grudges a lot and harbor a lot of hate in me. However, I do not hold these feelings within myself unless I have a really, really good reason to. Let's take, for instance, the situation that occurred with my dad and  the girl that he was with.

I'm not going to go into details about what happened between them other than she was a lying, cheating whore and they split up after my dad found for the second time. SECOND time.

My dad is a great guy. He's worked his ass off for his entire life to make my brother and I's childhood as best as it could be, for about ten years anyway. When I was ten my parents split up and nastily.  For about four years after their divorce I was beaten physically, emotionally, and verbally. Putting that aside though, my dad is one of the strongest men I've known. I mean, when he wasn't beating me down he was a great dad and tried his hardest to give us all he could. I've seen him at the bottom of the shit and I've seen him at the top. His weakness is how big his heart is though.

He's got a huge heart, one that I think I partially inherited. He's not a hateful or vengeful person like I am. He's forgiving and wiling to turn a new leaf for someone that he cares deeply about. Well, this one girl comes along who I thought was going to make his life incredibly easier. She was nice to us and we got along great with her kids. She seemed like the answer my father's prayers. My dad spent a lot of money helping her out: giving her a vehicle, a phone, a place to stay, helping her oldest daughter get a place in college. He did all that and partially neglected my brother and I in the process.

Then, she cheated on him. My dad broke up with her, but she ended up crawling back and he took her in and it seemed like everything was going good again. Until a few months later where my dad found out she was cheating on him again. This is when I found out that she did this often. She would be with a guy and use him for all he's worth then move on to the next person willing to take her in, kind of like my mother. Apparently, it happened more than frequently. She was a good liar. A really good liar.

My dad's really beaten down about this and it's understandable. My brother and I help him out as much as we can. But this brings me to what my original intention of this blog was. If I were to see her or her boyfriend now, I really, REALLY would beat the shit out of them. No one treats my dad like that. Nobody, well except for my mom and she gets away with it by being my mom. Her kids are embarrassed by her actions, I know this because they've told me. If I could beat them to a pulp and get away with it I would.

My dad always tells me not to hold in my hate or grudges, but I can't do that. It's who I am. It's something that I can't change about me. I'm hateful, and vengeful, but I am compassionate and loving. Even if it's only to a few people.

She, the whore that fucked my dad over, however, is definitely not one of them.
23 March 2009 @ 07:14 pm
I really have to stop taking so many quizzes now.
I was honest with this quiz and got my favorite character so I guess this wasn't so bad.

I'm Gaara!!

Sabakuno Gaara

If I were a "Naruto" character, I'd be Gaara!

Who would you be?
Take the Naruto personality test!!

16 March 2009 @ 08:09 pm
I'm on the hunt for something that I've been wanting for a long, long time. I'm looking specifically for this:


With an extra controller. If you know anyone who's willing to sell one, shooting for relatively cheap but I'll take an inquiry into anything right now, please contact me. I really don't care about an games coming with it unless they're coming for free basically. I really, really want one right now, but I don't have enough money to go and spend the $50+ they're calling for on eBay.
14 March 2009 @ 04:41 pm

You are The Tower

Ambition, fighting, war, courage. Destruction, danger, fall, ruin.

The Tower represents war, destruction, but also spiritual renewal. Plans are disrupted. Your views and ideas will change as a result.

The Tower is a card about war, a war between the structures of lies and the lightning flash of truth. The Tower stands for "false concepts and institutions that we take for real." You have been shaken up; blinded by a shocking revelation. It sometimes takes that to see a truth that one refuses to see. Or to bring down beliefs that are so well constructed. What's most important to remember is that the tearing down of this structure, however painful, makes room for something new to be built.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

27 February 2009 @ 04:59 pm
So Lent has started. Being a Catholic means I have to participate and this year I'm thinking it's not so much of a drag. See, when it comes to Lent you can either give up something (most do the easy thing like giving up soda) or improve on something until Easter comes around. Well, instead of giving anything up this year I've decided to improve on my body. I've been working out a lot more now and I figure this gives me a little more push to intensify my workout routine.

A couple of years ago I didn't give two shits about my body. I drank, popped, snorted, and smoked my body to shit. Now that I'm completely healthy and working out, I've been in the best shape and it's only going to get better. I have also been thinking that since we have bodies that are amazingly complex and can be put to many different uses if trained properly I might as well take full advantage of that and use my body to its full potential.

If I didn't use my body to its full capability then I would be doing two things. 1) I'd be even lazier than I allow myself to think and 2) I'd would be doing myself a dishonor by calling Bruce Lee my hero and treating my body like it's worthless.

What was this post about?
I don't remember my original intentions of typing this...that seems to be pretty often when I blog though.
10 February 2009 @ 07:22 pm
Did I ever mention how much I hate being sick? I didn't? Well know you now. I had some sort of stomach flu/really bad allergies for about a week, but they didn't really start kicking my ass until the weekend. Today is pretty much my first full day of not feeling like a piece of crap tossed in a paper bag before getting kicked around by a professional rugby player.

My immune system is usually better than I think it is. Before this act of sickness I had not been sick for, hmmm, a long time. Longer than two years. Now when I say sick I mean can't get out of bed sick. Not sniffles or a little cough or anything like that. Now, I also say my immune system is better than I think because when I was younger I used to get sick a lot. A LOT. How it got to be so strong nowadays is something that I'll probably never know, but I'm glad it did. Maybe it was all the orange juice I used to drink...

Either way. I just really, really don't like being sick. And the point of this journal was: I have no clue.
05 February 2009 @ 04:33 pm
A lot of the time when I come to LJ I try to figure out why I write in these journals. I don't know if I've reached a definite conclusion, but I think I have found two good reasons.

1) I think I try to figure out what makes myself tick. I find that when I write I usually don't type anything good. Normally I would consider that sad and pretty pathetic, but at the same time I find that it's a great way to tear apart my own mind. Simultaneously upon that I get to indulge myself once again on bad memories and then it comes back to being a bad thing. This plays into reason number two.

2) Part of me thinks that I write only bad memories so that I can write them down and never have to think about them again. It works most of the time. A bad day turns into a vent or rant on LJ, or somewhere else, and after that I feel better. Of course when I read back on these it's hard to not remember why I was feeling the way I do. Fucking memory keeper of mine.

On to the reason why I cam here. I feel a little more urges than usual to start smoking and drinking again. Nothing heavy. I won't do anything heavy ever again. That includes weed. I know it's not heavy, but I think people who smoke weed are fucking pathetic now. All of them. I don't give a shit who you or what you've done.

I feel like cigarettes want me to smoke them and alcohol wants to slide down my throat. I don't think I'm going to do them though. I'm stronger than I sued to be. A lot fucking stronger. Besides, if I found myself smoking or drinking again I'm pretty sure that everything I've worked for in the last year and a half would crumble down around me and I can't have that. If I lose that then I know I won't last another day in this world. So in order to keep on living I have to keep clean and sober. Not hard, especially when I'm working out again.

I hate thinking about things like this because I never act on my urges anymore anyway. It's like my mind just likes to fuck with me to see how long or hard I'll think about this.
31 January 2009 @ 10:49 am
I am an Absol!

I am a Banette!
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